Daily Bread of ....LIFE. The Cross daily.

So...since yesterday after talking to a dear friend,only for a few moments. She did say something that awoke me from this sleep that I have been in this past 2 weeks. ( Mark 13:33, 35, 36, 37)
Lately,I have been battling little things around in my mind. This,that,trips to the doctor with Bailey and myself. Thankful that all is gonna be ok. (Matthew 6:31-34). But still at times... worries are trying to surround my mind!
SO BUSY. I am actually and just slightly tired. Some things have had me so weary here lately. Not in a good way either. I feel like some days I am just juggling to get thru. Get thru to what,nothing. Because I find myself so tired. Too tired to pray and read my bible. Mentally exhausted. Not getting able to get that quiet time with God has had a impact on me lately. That is what I am tired,the JOY of the LORD has been slowly draining from my life because I have chosen to let this thing get a hold of my mind. The thing that bothers everyone at times. If I would have chosen to put the word and praying first,I wouldn't be in this shape at all. If I don't take up my cross daily (Luke 9:23), then I am not worthy to be a disciple of GOD. The bread of Life hasn't been daily,no wonder I am starving I feel in the spiritual life. Thankful I am realizing and ready to do something about it.

So I can't change what I have not done,but I can change what I can do today and in the future. So this is what I am gonna choose. The time with God has to come before the kids,husband,house!! ( Matthew 7: 13,14) It just has too. That way I can be the person,mother,wife that the Lord has called me to be. The house I look at now is a upside down wreck!! It will have to stay that way until first thing becomes first. Maiya is now watching Elmo, and Adyn playing in his room. Bailey school,Shane work! Me off to make some changes....What changes can you make so you can be a better you unto the LORD?

Direction and God's Heartbeat

Well first of all,I have to give God praise for giving little ole me direction for what lies ahead.:) So a 360 change is in store. I will be pursuing my nursing education starting this fall. I have been praying about it for a little while. Teaching,nursing,if anything. So with weighing it all out, continuing my education for a nursing career is what is best for us all now. I graduated in 2004 as a LPN and then I found out I was pregnant with Adyn(answered prayer). Then we move and add to our family again thru adoption.:) So I still hang on to my LPN degree,and I will be ready for 3 and 4th semester next fall and then my RN degree will be done. This semester I plan to take a couple classes on tues and thurs and the same in spring 2012. Maiya will start at the FCC preschool in August and only go 2 days a week while I am in school. I will be out of class by 11:00 and have till 3 for mama time. Time to feel refreshed as a mama. :) This will be so good for Maiya socially.Then I go get all the kids at 3. Bailey,Adyn and little Maiya. Adyn starts kindergarten this fall,so excited for him,but yet dreading it for me.:) NO SUMMER CLASSES, free with all 3 kids!!:) Praise the LORD for helping us out this week with something and for direction, and I am actually looking forward to school. Shane and I have total peace with this plan. Now for God's heartbeat and what is transforming in ours... Shane and I have connected with a church in KOLKATA INDIA. I was sleeping the other morning and I heard my phone go off with a email alert. So I check it and it is from the pastor at this church directed to our family. SO great what God is doing there and he asked us to pray for there upcoming crusade in the state of Bihar. Bihar is next to Kolkata. Oh, this just woke me up with a smile and I could see people in India having church and being connected with GOD. People have been repenting,getting baptized and filled with the HOLY GHOST. How great is that? Actually,there is nothing greater. Then thoughts of the orphanage ran thru my mind. Thoughts of Maiya's birthmom,thought of India,my heart beating faster as I lay there and start to reallize God has given us a heartbeat for India,the people,their souls,the children. All of it. You never know what the Lord can have in store for your life. I look back now,and think of how awesome it is that God lead Maiya to us. Blessings beyond words. We had some park play today,and I got some great pictures of the kids. Hoping I can post them soon. In this time, we are loving being a family of 5. Trying to start on Maiya's Gotcha Day Book to give to her on her first Gotcha day anniversery coming up in May.

VELCRO BABY and more!

We are all doing great and spring is blooming out. Sunshine, flowers, (these little things that are so easy to take for granted) are such a beauty of God's creation. Maiya update: She is doing great and talking more. Some of her new words are outside,hello,mine,me,book and last but not least and the cutest is Ba-lah. This means Bailey to her!:) She is oh so ever glued to me and daddy. Her hair is getting so long.Even at bed time,no kidding she is right almost on top of me,last night she actually was.LOL I cannot believe that on May 15th she will be 2 and it will be her special GOTCHA day! Her party is gonna be ELMO and polka dots! I know her birthmother will be thinking of her.Her first Easter is coming up,last year at this time we were just granted gaurdianship and beginning to wait on passport. WOW how time moves. Bailey and Adyn are growing and doing great in school. I go next week to register Adyn for kindergarden. I can't believe it. I look back and I am so glad that I waited till this year to do kindergarten. A little deal to some but not to me. It makes me feel good that I listened to God and made the right decision.:) Bailey and Adyn will have a year together at Pride. Nursing has just not worked out for us because of the hours of work. Staying home is working good. I plan to take a couple of online classes this summer,while enjoying time with my family. Starting August, if all goes as planned I will be going back to school to finish my teaching degree. Maiya will go on Tues and Thur 8-3 and on Mondays and Wed for just till about 12 noon. Fridays she will not go anywhere.Maiya will be going where Adyn goes to preschool now. It is right down the road from the college at a church. This I like and knowing all my kids are on the north end of town. So I guess I will keep her here for preschool. I really dread the thought of her going somewhere,but we feel socially and play wise it will help her. I know she needs to get unstuck from me for a little bit I guess. So hopefully this will help her and maybe I can breathe just a little. If the Lord wills and it is the right time,it will happen and peace we will all have including Maiya. I am praying about it because God knows best. Any words of advice or encouragement? Guesswhat... I finally got a camera. A good one from my sweet man. We are going to the park today and I hope to take some pictures. We needed one bad,especially with Easter,spring and her birthday and Adyn's graduation from preschool coming up. Oh, and the ELMO show in JUNE vaca and more! Have a blessed week to you all. The sun is rising now gotta go! GIGI