Well this week I feel in my heart I have really laid it all out to God in our special time, about this court and with waiting for Maiya Reela. I know I have said it,but actually talking to God and letting it slip out of my hands into his finally has happened.
Last week,I was loosing sleep waking up in the night checking emails constantly,this week I see a decrease in that totally. Last week and the week before,I was so anxious. Well that has gone away for now too. When people ask me every week,Have yah heard anything? Of course for a moment in time,it just breaks my heart,then God just easily patches it back up.
Now I am gettin more sleep and I can think clearly to planning and getting things done around here. The word SCRUTINY is no longer hanging above my head. I say to myself that I cannot control this so what will be,will be. I miss being in the driver seat because if I could control it,we would be heading out ASAP. And it would probally not be a good time since it was me driving. So now God is back in control and he knows the desires of our hearts and he knows when it is best for Maiya to come home and the other day when I was praying,the Lord spoke to me right after I prayed about our daughter and he said,"Be still and know that I am God." So thru Christ I can stay still and wait.
Last night I actually got our living room ready for spring and moved furniture,I guess now NESTING is really kicking in. Off to the grocery and gettin ready to attempt the closets!
Maiya will be ten months old Monday the 15th and on Thursday the 18th,I will be 32!! YAHOO! Now wouldn't be great for gaurdianship on my birthday or to be out of scrutiny,just a tinsy thought,ok! Don't forget to set your clocks up a hour tonight,YAY spring is near!!
Things to do for India this week: updated 3/17/10
Get more checked off on trip list- letter for jennifer typed up and saved and meds picked up
Drag out the suitcases- done
Start on Maiya' scrapbook- starting soon
Pack Maiya's bag -starting next week
Go get Shots on Monday morning,YIKES!!-done
Order battery for computer-done
Clear out SD card on camera-done
Gather slideshow music-done, almost
Start shopping for things we need- batteries bought for camera and more in progress
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Yes, the Lord has told me the same thing...Be Still and KNOW that I AM God! I am doing good "most" days":-) Suitcase is out and I got Abby's Lifebook caught up to this point...so excited about that!
Glad you are getting sleep. I always say, "When my hands are off, God's hands are ON!"
Jenny
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